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Hopefully I don’t come across as a rambling lunatic with this entry but I’ve been thinking about this odd habit of mine lately and wondering if I’m the only one. Before I describe this habit I have to make it clear that I am in fact a healthy male both mentally and physically. Well actually I’ve not been to a doctor’s office in years but in my opinion I’m good to go.
Today while edging the lawn I was thinking about what a pain in the ass it is to do and imaging various ways around the task and what people might say to my plans. That’s not odd but the entire time I’m thinking these thoughts it’s in someone else’s voice. Not just a random voice but one that’s familiar to me and recently listened to on television, radio or just casual conversation. It’s not always the same voice but it is always from someone who I’ve hear talk often over the past few days. In this case it was Anthony Bourdain, you know the show right?
Not only was I thinking to myself in his voice but I found myself responding to various scenarios in a way that I think he would, cursing, impatient smarmy type answers and questions. These responses are not always in line with what I would do but what I think he would do WWAD or what would Anthony do. Kind of odd right? It’s not just while cutting the lawn that I do this but even while reading a book or typing out this blog. Each word spelled out in his voice. Prior to Anthony it would have been another television personality or perhaps the last person I had a conversation with.
This is something I’ve been aware of for years and while I always wondered about it I guess I’ve never thought of it enough to blog about it. What does it mean I wonder? Is it low self esteem, boredom or annoyance with my own voice and thoughts? I’m not overly concerned, more amused than anything I suppose.