My anger issues have decreased dramatically by learning there are other options when dealing with various emotions. Instead of just assuming doubt and fear have to be eliminated I now try to listen to them and make a decision as to whether or not they are valid for that particular situation or being magnified as I try hard to ignore them all together. After all, like I said, these are all natural emotions we have with each serving a purpose.
This past weekend sitting around doing absolutely nothing I found myself just unable to enjoy the fact I didn’t have to do anything. Having a day like that is something I always look forward to but when it arrives I feel anxious as if there’s something I should be doing I could consider productive. Instead of just sitting back I might pace the floor, tap my fingers or have a million thoughts running around my head with things I probably should do like cut the lawn, paint the deck, clean the basement, paint the fence, clean the garage and trust me I could go on forever with what I think I should be doing. It’s one thing to have to deal with this in the way it affects me but I know those around me see it too. That look on my face could probably be interpreted several ways leaving one guessing. The look isn’t anger but a look of, “what am I supposed to be doing right now?”